A friend told me that when people ask about your study abroad experience, you’re suppose to say that its amazing regardless of how bad it actually is.. He told me no one wants to hear sad or depressing stories of the great and awesome “study abroad” …. I mean there’s some truth to it… but something about that seems wrong.. Don’t get me wrong.. my study abroad experience has been interesting.. I’ve never had so much time to NOT do work.. But I have this hunch if we got all the people that have studied abroad together and spoke truthfully, many will agree upon the loneliness, sadness, and the feeling that you SHOULD be having an amazing time ..
Perhaps its just me. maybe its just my weird granny tendencies that makes me feel like I’m always out of place …I feel like Korea is a great place to party and just have “fun”. what sucks for me is that my idea of “fun” is not quite the clubbing and getting super drunk with strangers… It doesnt help that being around alot of people I dont know makes me feel rather anxious. Stupid being a introvert -__- That was probably the hardest thing for me when I transferred to BC. I left such an amazing group of people to come to a place where no one knew me. I guess its the same thing this time around; I left a group of friends who knew me more than I know myself to a place filled with foreigners. I can’t help but miss the little things that made my experience at BC so amazing.. Susan insisted on me making a list of what I miss. so here it is :)
-Packing up all my things to do “work” with Susan.. and then end up making pointless lists, watching documentaries, and talking about people we dont know as if they’re our best friends…
-Baking and doing domestic things with Jen Li.. and eventually turning into conversations about life
- Amanda and I’s failed baking projects
- Steph creepily stroking me
-Lord of the Rings Marathon at the Chu’s
- Ohana Group.. really want to see how big Isaiah is >_<
- Having a photoshoot for global warming in ruby
-The “orphan” family .. more specifically watching Stephen and Dong do zumba
-Having someone that will legit call me 20 times if ever am “hermiting”
- The stupid cookies, gummies, and nuts Susan would pack me
- Everyone at Highrock.. seriously everyone.
- Watching TV with Jen .. still so weirddd
- Coming out to the living room of Radnor to procrastinate doing work
- Getting confused into thinking that I actually live in Ruby and Edmonds sometimes..
-Yoga with the wives
- Oneill. yeah.. i actually miss it.. maybe more so the company i had when i studied..
-Doing activities like snowboarding, apple picking, and hiking
Okie. Im gonna stop… before I get on a flight back to Boston… This isn’t meant to be a depressing post.. Just a realization that you have to give it time to cultivate meaningful experiences .. I’m sure sometime by next semester I’ll be making a post of all the things I miss about Korea.